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Saturn's trans song
02:46
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you don't wanna go, don't wanna go outside
don't wanna leave where you reside
you just wanna hide, hide hide hide
don't wanna let them hear your voice
you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away
you don't know how you can keep this up all day
you don't know how many more looks you can take
it's getting really hard to breathe
it's getting hard to watch them grieve
you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away
every time a car goes by
a list of scenarios goes through your mind
in each one you could die
because everyone in the world seems to see, seems to see
you are something you should not be
you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away
there's nothing I can do
there's nothing I can do
there's nothing I can do
to get you to see
to get you to see
to get you to see
to get you to see the real me
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I don't wanna see your face
get me out of this place
you are filled with greed
your life is filled with greed
is this really all there is
is there nothing underneath
is this really how you live
is this really how you speak to me?
blame all your problems on me
I know I'll never change you
so blame all your problems on me
you are nothing but bullshit
a mask beneath a mask
how does anyone put up with this
how can no one see past?
blame all your problems on me
I know I'll never change you
so blame all your problems on me x2
la da, da da, da da x4
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Nothingness
04:30
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how do you write a song about nothing?
how do you write a song about what you're feeling?
I don't know
I don't know
I was just sitting around
with my eyes on the ground
there was nothing new
to see
I was jumping off a cliff
a feeling pretty bliss
I was drowning in
the sea
and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me
I was born in a lake
surrounded by serpents
I was born in a fire
a fire so bright
a fire so bright
I was up late at night
wondering what to write
I was up late at night
with nothing to fight
and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me
run, run away
hide in your mind
forget what they say
ooh
cause you think that you're well
you think you're okay
you found love in your life
but that's all gone away
and you'll fight one last time
you'll live one more day
you'll find the light at the end
and then you'll be free
and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me
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it's really weird to me how everyone is their own person
it's really weird to me how we can be so different
entire memories inside the things you'd like to hide
the way you talk, the way you bide your time
and hope you never disappear
it's really weird to me how you look in the mirror in the morning
you see your face you see it every day
so you're probably sick of the way
your nose meets your eyes
and you'd rather not think about what your smile looks like
so I will appreciate all the things you cannot
yes I will appreciate all the things you cannot
*whistling*
it's weird to me how they could make you hate yourself
but I see your beauty and I see everything else
and it makes me angry that anyone would ever try to hurt you
and it makes me wish that I could be there to protect you
cause I feel like if I could, then you would finally understand
that you are loved
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shouldn't I be better
shouldn't I be worse?
you could never figure out
how to lift that curse
you always stopped me
before I could look back on what I'd done
but you're the one who told me
there's no way out
there's no way out
you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me
I should've guessed that you never planned on following through
you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me
I should've known that would be too hard for you
too hard for you
I've got so many problems
my problems have problems
I've got so many issues
and no one can solve them
I was always afraid I'd find some way to harm you
you said 'that's impossible'
I said 'watch me'
but you promised you would haunt me
you said you would haunt me
your broken promises
will always be behind me
you said you would haunt me
you said 'please believe me'
I never had a problem believing you
but I guess that's my issue, too
you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me
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Saturn B.C. Portland, Oregon
Saturn B.C. makes music for other sad trans queers like themself
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