It takes up all this time Just to figure it out Why I can't seem to find nothing to care about So I'll stare out my window until a cloudy sky Becomes a negative of itself We took the time We figured it out why Nothing ever seemed to be working out Between you and myself Oh between you and myself One day I'll wake up to find That this was all a dream To a world where I know what my life truly means But could it ever be so easy? Oh it will never be Easy And something that's always been Stuck in my mind The way the trees look pitch black against The dimming sky Almost like the way I like the way You know the look that's in my eye But I don't think there's that more That I can do for you Nothing, nothing more than that dimming sky Can do Only as much as these Two pale blue eyes Can ever do Nothing, nothing more than a sky on Fire can do For you

I'd like to say that I've been getting better At being all by myself But I miss the way that you looked in your sweaters And I don't think that that will help I know it gets frustrating We're always leaving things in such an ugly place Now I don't even wanna see You're precious fucking face So don't you act surprised When there's no space for you to stay The night Tonight Oh, tonight I don't get so surprised anymore Well maybe if it was you knocking at my door No most things I'm prepared for At least that's what I tell myself to get some sleep at night So don't you be afraid Of the choices you have to make And don't you act ashamed Of the shadows you have to blame They will always be yours They will always be yours

I thought you might reply this time Don't know who's been putting these Silly thoughts in my mind I thought one day you might be mine What am I missing in my life To make me think thoughts so sick Why, why, why? Thought I might tell you about my life The way you made me feel important made me think that you would care That I'm alright But who was I to think That I'd stay in your mind For more than the allotted time? I like to pretend you wouldn't Suck my blood and leave me dry Even though these ugly fears still Bounce around in the corners of my mind I know from experience There is a pleasure that comes with that pain And to be very honest Good feelings don't come easily These days These days I don't even Tie my shoes Too busy thinkin bout Something knew I guess I learned I've had The power this whole time And these days I can not pretend You didn't know What you were doing then The question that still Rings around my head is Why, tell me why Was it so important to be seen like that In a nineteen year old's eyes? I guess this question Isn't worth me Wasting all my goddamn time So don't you go pretending You would not Suck my blood and leave me dry But there is still a part of me wishing You would call in the middle of the night Cause I know very intimately The pleasure caused By that pain And I hate to admit it but Good feelings don't come easily These days Not these days Not these days