PansyFace

by Saturn B.C.

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about

My second EP!!! I created this while in a much better place than the last one, and I feel like this is more who I am. Anyway I hope you all enjoy this as much as i enjoyed making it.

(( named it PansyFace even though there's a DAISY because sometimes it feels like society will never see you for what you really are, and they decide to call you something else ))

credits

released November 20, 2016

All songs written by me, doing vox, guitar, ukulele, glockenspiel, etc. with help from my dad and steph

Thank you to my dad for recording and mixing all of this!!! love u! Thank you to my family for always listening to my songs and encouraging me and providing me with the means to do this. And to all my friends who make me feel confident, and to any person (stranger or not) that has complimented my music. I love you all so so much <3

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Saturn B.C. Portland, Oregon

Saturn B.C. is a queer trans teen from portland, oregon who loves to make music. xey/they/he pronouns.

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Track Name: Saturn's trans song
you don't wanna go, don't wanna go outside
don't wanna leave where you reside
you just wanna hide, hide hide hide
don't wanna let them hear your voice

you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away

you don't know how you can keep this up all day
you don't know how many more looks you can take
it's getting really hard to breathe
it's getting hard to watch them grieve

you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away

every time a car goes by
a list of scenarios goes through your mind
in each one you could die
because everyone in the world seems to see, seems to see
you are something you should not be

you just wanna run, run run away
you just wanna run, run run away

there's nothing I can do
there's nothing I can do
there's nothing I can do
to get you to see
to get you to see
to get you to see
to get you to see the real me
Track Name: A hate song addressed to all Bad People
I don't wanna see your face
get me out of this place
you are filled with greed
your life is filled with greed

is this really all there is
is there nothing underneath
is this really how you live
is this really how you speak to me?

blame all your problems on me
I know I'll never change you
so blame all your problems on me

you are nothing but bullshit
a mask beneath a mask
how does anyone put up with this
how can no one see past?

blame all your problems on me
I know I'll never change you
so blame all your problems on me x2

la da, da da, da da x4
Track Name: Nothingness
how do you write a song about nothing?
how do you write a song about what you're feeling?
I don't know
I don't know

I was just sitting around
with my eyes on the ground
there was nothing new
to see

I was jumping off a cliff
a feeling pretty bliss
I was drowning in
the sea

and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me

I was born in a lake
surrounded by serpents
I was born in a fire
a fire so bright
a fire so bright

I was up late at night
wondering what to write
I was up late at night
with nothing to fight

and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me

run, run away
hide in your mind
forget what they say
ooh

cause you think that you're well
you think you're okay
you found love in your life
but that's all gone away

and you'll fight one last time
you'll live one more day
you'll find the light at the end
and then you'll be free

and the nothingness surrounded me
and the nothingness surrounded me
because nothingness is all you can be
so the nothingness surrounded me
Track Name: A love song addressed to all Good People
it's really weird to me how everyone is their own person
it's really weird to me how we can be so different
entire memories inside the things you'd like to hide
the way you talk, the way you bide your time
and hope you never disappear

it's really weird to me how you look in the mirror in the morning
you see your face you see it every day
so you're probably sick of the way
your nose meets your eyes
and you'd rather not think about what your smile looks like
so I will appreciate all the things you cannot
yes I will appreciate all the things you cannot

*whistling*

it's weird to me how they could make you hate yourself
but I see your beauty and I see everything else
and it makes me angry that anyone would ever try to hurt you
and it makes me wish that I could be there to protect you
cause I feel like if I could, then you would finally understand

that you are loved
Track Name: I Could Never Sense Ghosts
shouldn't I be better
shouldn't I be worse?
you could never figure out
how to lift that curse

you always stopped me
before I could look back on what I'd done
but you're the one who told me
there's no way out
there's no way out

you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me
I should've guessed that you never planned on following through
you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me
I should've known that would be too hard for you
too hard for you

I've got so many problems
my problems have problems
I've got so many issues
and no one can solve them

I was always afraid I'd find some way to harm you
you said 'that's impossible'
I said 'watch me'

but you promised you would haunt me
you said you would haunt me
your broken promises
will always be behind me
you said you would haunt me
you said 'please believe me'
I never had a problem believing you
but I guess that's my issue, too

you said you would haunt me
you promised you would haunt me